no sleep may be finally getting to me..

i just had a digital meeting with some doctor about my cpap. he had me open my mouth, so he could see in my throat but i seriously doubt he could see just by the angle of my cell phone camera. he told me that they were gonna send me some rings that i needed to try on my finger, to sleep with, so they could monitor my heart while i sleep. the doctors will then make a judgment if sleeping with a mask or a cpap device help me better judging by how my heart beats. i have a feeling that this could have something to do with why my heart flutters sometimes, paired up with the stress i encounter thanks to my mom and other family members (which IS the ONLY reason why i'm still even in this fuckin state- my family is too damn naive and selfish to help anyone but theirselves so they can be truly happy and constructive- refusing to acknowledge that JUST because they managed to successfully make a happy life in this unopportunistic state- EVERYONE ELSE SHOULD TOO! *NEWSFLASH- NOT EVERYONE LIVES WITH THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCES. some are disabled and some are privileged to have qualities about them that just makes everything work for them WHETHER THEY DESERVE IT OR NOT). the sleep doctors will finally determine what will help me sleep if the stress from my family and my messed up breathing doesn't kill me first. THANKS AMANDA! YOU REALLY DID WHAT YOU TOLD YOUR AUNT YOU'D DO WHICH HAS NOW FUCKED MY HEALTH UP MORE! YOU'RE THE BEST!